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My American Family

by Kwazymoto

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1.
This Year 04:39
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this year my father's brother will die take with him all of the family's pride never too close or subject to guise teaching men without roof to praise the sky he drank himself to this bed where he lies yellow instead of caressing the head of his daughter's third child like father my own brother vanished checking out, it has its advantage he's blowing smoke again it'll fog all the wreckage taking notes, i'll secure our heritage uncomfortable silence now lingers in our house where us children played now i don't even like you but i have no one else i loved you once i love you still
2.
Hipster Scum 03:38
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hardy sigh pylon ode burning barbies head to toe from madrid to montreal nihilistic cheering zone feeble lambs that crush their bones they’re all ostentatious in their own road blow old ageless promo no! but they do cause it’s what’s cool cuz licking shellac then they drool cause they’re the fools dropped out of school like where’s the pot and where’s the pistol i’ve got eight rounds, i can’t miss you these damn ego problems fogging glasses oedipus style could you ever understand what it is that i have familiarized? crushing my stale cigarettes post the distress call had with my mother is freaking out now i am freaking out my poor brother alone will he see another day? tiptoe down the hall ramshackle door that waits for us to open up what if he rests here? oh no on the street they’re all talking about this sound it reeks of boundless ersatz chic what could they know about my thirst? colorful history and blood mix to make our bold passion burst could you ever understand what it is that i have familiarized? downing my own fifth that night post the wreckage surrounding my brother is freaking out now i am freaking out my poor family alone will we see another day? racing down the hall ramshackle place that waits for us to walk into is this forever? oh you praise abusers may Hell rain upon your agendas that don’t mean shit social justice for which you’re not fit pitfalls for your disguise burn hipster scum scrape you off my shoe cut your lungs out i’ll silence you for good no one else ever could
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Daddy's Demons 03:32
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some years ago i was driving with you we were headed home i was coarse with you just like my father just like his father i am my father we can’t get much farther with my arm stretched towards the back reaching for your neck in tact exact my revenge on you i think today is the day that i finally kill you slice the competition thin you’re a stiff and i’m the winning kid with our mother in my corner hid from deplorable acts i commit sin on and on it goes don’t you know what’s wrong when you stay up alone alone that’s what we’ll be all alone without home i’m singing songs and airing out all of my shit i can’t cope, i look for an easy fix they say it’s bad for me but i feel really good what if i like power? i can’t explain holes in walls, family faces upturned they say don’t be so mad but it feels really good what if i like power? i can’t explain i learned from you, don’t put this on me i did not ask to be born but i do think sir that i need to be born again every year i just get worse every year you nearly burst from fits of rage to smiles terse our DNA it’s ever cursed when i look at you with disgust it’s sick cause I owe you everything i know one day that i'll be the man that you have been i’ll be the man that you have been to the next of kin and after that the next of kin and after that and after that and after that
4.
Black Sheep 05:38
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she told me why i figured by raptured attitude suction dance won’t fly solitary i in the faction blind seated in the sole seat stolen from outside get yourself neat, straight elbows off the slab you can’t procreate with your feathers rough as that tumbled from the nest don’t even live here now your room such a mess now our novel patron house caught up by the outs peering in side cramp glowing so dim the grim reaps my worn place in devastated homes walking all alone alone in this crowded space taking numbers at sloth pace hasting’s taste a pummel waste pasting funnels clay to face does it matter where i came from or how i got here? how do you care how i talk? why do i care that you care how i walk? does it really matter if i say hello? seeing everyone here is exhausting caught up by the outs peering in side cramp glowing so dim the grim reaps my worn place in devastated homes walking all alone alone again i’ll take to murky waters give my daughter all my loving don’t give me nothing i don’t have nothing left to give i’ll tell you something about the black sheep he lives in servitude your gift caught up by the outs peering in my side cramp glowing dim the grim reaps my warm place in homes i am walking all alone all alone
5.
The Lamentation 04:53
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look up to the sky churning ever grey clouds that gather round for the pouring display falls down upon me falls down upon you in the chapel we sing but today we kneel cross our hearts and wish that we were never here who is it we blame for churning stomach aches stupid fits of rage for those who’ve gone adrift i will feel the loss you will feel the loss everything we did for every lost one our grief is like pools of blood and milk reaching ripples
 the outreach it’s fleeting they care but cannot fathom black gown on the mother she’ll hug the open casket and take to the altar and beg to die oh God you are so cruel to leave us here without them the child preceding the parent so unnatural now we scrounge on floorboards and take drugs and we cry i long to wake up and not know such brutal lies but death is real and steals from our family’s apple tree the only way out i see is to fall down the hole follow down i follow down i follow down i fall i wish that you could see the mess that you left behind you i know you would have stayed i know you wouldn’t have
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You're Good at Making Me Think That I Love You 04:25
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i bought you for sale now i fail to see (what you really like) butchered the scale for you not me (what you really want) cause what I give is not what I reap (tell me how you like it) my bloody hands they tend your feet (that’s just how i like it) and all the while my family they weep (how are they feeling) starve in their homes and talk it’s cheap (i hope that they’re bleeding) burn me at the stake i barely know myself but you’re good at making me think that i love you and you love me let’s together and just maybe we’ll stay up late and we can see all of the ways my misery can profit your grandiose scheme anything for you baby i’m off the phone and you’re off your meds put mother off another day i’m on the clock you’re in my bed drop to the floor, do what you say crawl towards your knee i’ll lap it up stroke your hand upon my head you’re such a good, good boy today torch your calendar, okay? i will do anything for you i will do everything for you could you ever understand what it is that i have familiarized? crushing my stale cigarettes post the distress call had with my mother now i am freaking out my real friends sit aside and they watch smashing my moral compass kill the instinct intact gift from my mother good night.
7.
Fire 03:30
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sit inside in a tree of lies while i wonder why i’ve been set up by a family tied to hateful bite it’s wrong supposed to swallow pills but guttural ills that’ll kill for real if my will don’t feel and if i choke on em i know i’m gone so i sink in sand without my friends can’t comprehend the ultimate bender i have had you have to be real strong but careless free unchained from God i am my God the only way to be take a look at me unrelenting bring the prongs who’s at the door bolt up action cancerous whores that want to claw at me bring me down so now i’m hearing voices making choices taking torches to the north end hoping to anoint the order dissed i got po po screaming boy you’re schiz’ing but i’m dreaming about rinsing shower me in gold mercury gifts man what’s the problem i grabbed his arm and i’ma solve em i’ma calm em i know just what makes them piggies tick don’t raise your arm son glock unlocked and blocked the stock ton visions flocked all the way up into my sick head who’s at the door bolt up action cancerous whores that want to claw at me bring me down vomit my feelings to the police in my eyes i am creeping bring me down bring me down amidst this whack season forego life without reason my decisions led to prisms
8.
I Still Hate You 02:36
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gather round our table i hope you brought a knife we’ll drink if you are able craft memories tonight and turn our faces towards sunny cherry dreams my smile i can forge but my blade punctures your spleen i still hate you i still hate you i don’t care what the people say i’m gonna hate you anyway get along, get along for the fam get along, get along, get along for the camera get alone, get alone if you can so i can tell you how i really feel about faux fandom i would like to raise my hands black sheepish restraints at hand i still hate you i still hate you i don’t care what the people say i’m gonna hate you anyway
9.
Iris 03:01
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sleeping endlessly in a home that won’t uphold i think it is a dream you can shake me wide awake but my black sheepish tendencies that will curse dad’s demons i lament forlorn i still hate you i’m alone don’t touch me Iris don’t touch me Iris don’t touch me Iris don’t touch me Iris get away i wish that your white doves could be enough, could restore love i wish that my black gloves could stop gripping, i think i’m slipping moving endlessly in the rear view so obscene i think i’ve done it wrong and i misspeak every time but you’re still here in the barn with your palm up to the sky i decline forlorn they still hate me all alone don’t touch me Iris no don’t touch me Iris no don’t touch me Iris no don’t touch me Iris get away i wish that your white doves could be enough, could restore love i wish that my black gloves could stop gripping, i think i’m slipping i love you Iris
10.
Oils & Lead 05:43
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if we embrace tonight will i lose my arms? with my pencils sharpened will the children cry and starve? soft smiles, arms wide, and sheets that smell of bleach apples procured for the hopes of something sweet but i don’t know, no i know not what other stranded beings could possibly shed light on like a confab, tete a tete sad excuse for an exit stance forget it all my open hearse now they’re shaking down all that’s left oils & lead that fill the coffins the burning of the candles, the slamming of the cell the pitch of the cross and the march of the ill come all- choke, cough, suffer, fight, endure and scream infrastructures demolished still held by the seams watch and wallow from the fragile corporate pocket the sheet, the judge, the metals and the kids racing down assembly lines towards the fire and their maker here it comes, the banshee’s next undertaking now they’re shaking down all that’s left oils & lead that fill the coffins this is all there is

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released September 28, 2018

all songs written & performed by: kwazymoto

guitar/piano/vocals: ian hemerlein
drums/percussion: kody blackmon

additional instrumentation by:
harp: lauren hemerlein

recorded, mixed, & mastered @ gypsy farm studio by: zeke sayer

album artwork by: ian, lauren, & joanne hemerlein

these songs are dedicated to: paul, joanne, stevie & lauren

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